There's two of us!

Apparently its itme for introductions so I'll introduce myself. I'm Ssin's cousin: Geekycherry.
My story its not so different from hers at the beggining: I was a regular girl struggling with my weight since elementary school because I never really had control over it. This shouldn't be a sourprise to anyone who has seen our family before. If we where in Game of Thrones our house's badge would be a stache and our motto"With our bellys we'll rule".



 I knew I wasn't like all other girls who were small and skinny, I was tall (for my country standard) and fat but i didnt do anything about it until i was 14 years old. I started a diet and lose 9 kilos (19 lbs.) wich allowed me to enjoy normal life for a while. Then the usual hapened: since I never actually learned to eat, I gained back the weight I lost and gained even more.


Me on EDs

But then something changed. When I was 19 I started losing weight by controling my food intake, I used to do this to cope being in an ill relationship. Obviously, as my relationship got worst, so did my eating disorder. The history behind this period of my life is not so different from others. The depresion took over me and the only thing I could think about was food: I wanted it but i hater it so badly. I used to consume around 300 calories per day and had just enough energy to stay awake and look at thinspos all day. Around that time a big show was comming for my dance group so we used to practice from 3 to 6 hours a day, and I used to faint at least once a week.

Me in Spain

And then just as sudden as my ill relationship started, it also ended. I started to get better by finally being free and taking strenght from my friends. It took a lot of time and several relapses but at the end I was healthy and happy again. Then I left and moved to Spain for 6 months, and just as someone told me "hapiness makes you fat" I gained all the weight in the world.  I had NEVER been so big in my life, so when I came back I started to diet again and again but there was a problem: I quit everytime because every time I would freak out and started eating EVERYTHING. That lasted for 2 years until 2 or 3 months ago. I started feeling again like I used to at the begining of my eating disorders, though this time it was not because of a man, but because my life in general wasnt in control.
After a month reducing my calories intake I realized what i was getting into again but this time I stopped. This time im going to control my control. This time im going to change my life for health and im going to strive for progress and not perfection. I'll be fit and not thin. I'm gonna fight for life.